J & K update

Jeremy and I were able to go out on a date yesterday. yay! We found a babysitter and went and saw Saving Mr. Banks. We both highly recommend this movie. It was SO good. Funny and sad. It was the behind the scene story of Mary Poppins. I forgot why Jeremy and I don't go to the movie to see movies. He is SO loud when he laughs. Usually it's when everyone else is done laughing, he is still laughing! I loved it though. He was so happy. He was in his own little world just laughing away. I just love him.

After the movie we went to Hardees to get a bite to eat. Jeremy literally had a bite of a cheeseburger. Notice my cheeseburger. Now that's a cheeseburger dear! I asked Jeremy where he wanted to get something to eat. He said he wanted a cheeseburger. I ordered first and got the BIG cheeseburger. He ordered and got the "one" bite cheeseburger. Yeah, he went a little whimpy. I was like, really??!! you want a cheeseburger and you get that little thing? 

my real cheeseburger

I ate most of it, but Jeremy did have to finish it. I wonder why he was still hungry??! haha. I just love him.

Jeremy has been loving his job. He loves being able to help people and talk with many different small businesses. He enjoys his team that he works with.

He enjoys his calling with the young men's. He gets to teach the teachers. Boys from ages 14-15. 

When Jeremy is home he loves to spend time with Carly. He loves to watch basketball with her (march maddness) and read her books and tickle her. It is so fun to watch those two together. Carly doesn't really mind when Jeremy is gone for work. But when he is home, she loves to be with him always. 

Lately, I have been working on my sewing skills. Yeah, not posting any pictures of what I have done because notice I said "working." Not super proud of some of the projects I have done. I have taken some of my shirts and turned them into dresses for Carly for summer. I will share this one. My sister-in-law gave me this t-shirt that she had. I turned it into a little dress for my niece. 

yeah, she is a cutie.

I have debated whether or not to write this portion of my blog but I have decided to do so. I'm not going to lie. Moving has been hard, hard, hard. Super hard. The reason I didn't want to write this is because Jeremy and our Bishop are the only ones I have really opened up to about this. Jeremy knows because he is my husband and knows everything. Our bishop (church leader) knows because I had an interview one Sunday after we moved here and he totally called me out on how hard everything is for me. I just broke down crying. Mind you. I never cry. Especially in front of people that I just barely know. He is truly an inspired man to have asked how I was doing. I don't like people knowing what hards times I am going through. I have always been one to keep it all to myself. 

There have been many things that I wasn't prepared for and it all came all at once. I wasn't ready to be a total stay-at-home mom. I wasn't ready for Jeremy to work full-time. Because up until this time I had him home every day all day which was super nice with a new baby. This was the first time that I had a taste of what the rest of our lives will be like. Me stay home, he go to work. I am not at all complaining because being a mom is THE BEST. There are little things every day that make me cry because I just love Carly so much. I wasn't ready for Jeremy not being here to help me put Carly to bed every night. I think that time right before bed is so special with Carly. We do get to have it on the weekends. I wasn't ready to feel so alone at night. SO alone. Carly goes to bed at 7p.m. and then I have until 11:30p.m. when Jeremy comes home. This has been the hardest on me that he works evenings. I always thought that he would be able to be home in the evenings so we can have that time together and I won't be alone. This was the time that I took to do Carly's birthday invites that took forever to do and I was told I have too much time on my hands. Really?!!! no. I have time that I would rather spend making things and trying to be crafty and not on the internet. I have also done little projects for our rooms. 

Our room. Two canvases are covered in fabric. The one in the middle says 'i love you' over and over. 

For Carly's room. Gold and pink theme. Dream BIG Sparkle MORE Shine BRIGHT. 

I have been interested in some mommy blogs. They have totally changed my thinking lately. I have shed lots of tears in all of this.  I mean a lot. Some days when Jeremy leaves for work, I just sit there and cry because I feel like I barely get any time with Jeremy during the week. I forgot to mention that we really don't like our neighbors. They have surround sound and blast it all.the.time. Especially when Carly is asleep. cool hu?! Not really. We have asked them the last two weeks to turn it down 6 different times. This is huge for me because part of me being a stay-at-home mom I have to deal with loud neighbors all day. Loud scares me. Being alone scares me. 

I have found that reading these mommy blogs who write about what they are going through and their problems puts it into perspective. I go through my trials to make me stronger. And let me say, I have grown a lot from this already and know that it's not quite over. I have found that my Heavenly Father is there for me when I feel so alone at 10p.m. at night. 

I have been keeping a journal in all of this, part of the reason I haven't written anything like this on here. I write anything and everything that happened in my day. Lots of feelings. Lots of prayers. I hope that in a year I can look back and see how this has all made me into a better person. 

There are many things I have learned lately, but one is that being open with my husband is so important. Being open that I don't like our neighbors. Being open about how hard it is for me to be alone for so long at night. Being open about how much I thank my Heavenly Father for sending me Carly. Man I love that girl. She is my world. 

I have also learned lately that being positive throughout my day makes it a whole lot better. Something Jeremy and I have talked a lot about and we are working on. I know I have a Heavenly Father who loves me. I know I have a husband who loves me. I know I have a baby, who I get to take care of every day, who loves me. I am one lucky girl.